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wow!! pretty homo ([personal profile] inutile) wrote2020-01-06 08:06 pm
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This is Nageki Fujishiro. Please leave a message, and I will contact you... if it's important.

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salvagedsoul: (// born to meet you)

[personal profile] salvagedsoul 2013-02-26 06:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Would you like to learn?

[he gave him a sweet smile, liking the idea of teaching Nageki how to play. Nageki says many things to him that he knows are intended to be compliments. Maybe it sounded like Kaworu's outlook was admirable, but he probably cannot love in any other way.]

I've been playing a lot since Shinji-kun came here. It focuses my mind and puts my core at ease. While I was growing up, I would play for those reasons, too.
salvagedsoul: (// adore)

[personal profile] salvagedsoul 2013-02-26 07:52 pm (UTC)(link)
What makes you say that? [He's unphased by his removal of his fingers from the piano.] Skill doesn't matter. It's worth doing for its own sake, to enrich your own life. Besides, it's all practice, anyway.

[Or at least Kaworu thinks so. It doesn't occur to him that Nageki might be able to sing instead. Smiling, he reaches down and takes his hands in his own, guiding them back up to the keys.]

Why don't you give it a try? To see if you want to learn. If you don't, that's fine.
salvagedsoul: (Q // profile)

[personal profile] salvagedsoul 2013-02-27 01:21 am (UTC)(link)
[something about that question catches his attention. Nageki sounded nervous... although he often did. Kaworu doesn't mind nudging people out of their comfort zones - it's something that's been quite useful to him, in many ways. That's not it, not what's making him hesitate in answering or encouraging him further.

His smile fades a little as a hint of surprise flashes over his face. This is familiar... this is like the night of Valentine's Day. Sitting here, playing music. Enticing that adorable hesitation from the other person. Marveling at the strange mess of feelings these Lilim give him.

But it's not the same. This is Nageki-kun. He had come here on his own. He said he was worried about him.
]

...

[his warmth has mostly faded into a calm, stoney mask now, smiling only with a sense of muted realization.]

Nageki-kun... no. It's fine, you don't have to.
salvagedsoul: (Q // crows)

[personal profile] salvagedsoul 2013-02-27 04:25 pm (UTC)(link)
[Does he want to discuss it? For whatever reason Nageki came here because he was concerned about him. It's... really not something that someone has done before. Kaworu doesn't even know if something is really wrong. But he does see what he's doing right now with Nageki here.]

I think I may be projecting Shinji-kun onto you.

[Sighing, he looks upwards towards the crumbling ceiling.

why? he is happy with how that night turned out. he is quietly fascinated by the way it makes him feel. And the love he has for Nageki is distinct and unique. There's been nothing deficient about their time together so far today, either.
]

...I'm sorry. This is new. I do not understand it.
salvagedsoul: (Default)

[personal profile] salvagedsoul 2013-02-27 05:01 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't know. I'm confused, too.

[Should he try to talk to Nageki about it? He doesn't even understand it himself.]

If a Lilim did such a thing to one of his friends... I would think it was an attempt to alleviate the pain in their heart caused by being rejected the way I was. But, with me, it's as I was telling you earlier. I am happy with the way things played out with him.
salvagedsoul: (Q // hopeful)

[personal profile] salvagedsoul 2013-02-28 02:59 am (UTC)(link)
[Hearing that, he doesn't answer. His eyes stay trained above, half-closed. The smile is gone now, replaced with thoughtful quiet.

Being happy with the results...

And wishing they had turned out differently at the same time.

That doesn't make any sense. But is that how he felt? There was no explanation for how he had just behaved, but he can't recognize that emotion. He doesn't understand it, or maybe he can't tell it's there.

Finally, he looked back to Nageki.
]

How wonderful it is to be alive. I keep discovering new, incredible things.
salvagedsoul: (Q // chinhand)

[personal profile] salvagedsoul 2013-02-28 02:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[That tiny smile is such a reward. It coaxes a smile back out of Kaworu, and he leans closer to him until their shoulders touch.]

To think that you would finally smile at me, Nageki, while already being so kind. I'm very grateful to have you as a friend.

[he'd come here because he'd been worried about him... and then helped him discover a new mystery about himself. No, he's truly blessed to have met this gentle, caring dove. Kaworu doesn't feel any need for someone to watch over him, but - in a way, Nageki was doing that, and it's really a flattering favor to receive.]

I love you, too. You have so much empathy. Thank you for coming here today, for being concerned about my well-being.
salvagedsoul: (// born to meet you)

[personal profile] salvagedsoul 2013-02-28 05:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Logic like that is irrelevant, even if it's true. It's you who did it, and that's what makes it meaningful to me.

[as he speaks, he reaches for one of Nageki's hands again and gives it a squeeze. Nageki gives this nebulous concept of "everyone else" far too much credit, while downplaying the things he does out of the goodness of his own heart. Beneath the surface of that humility is a self-aggrandizing attitude - the sort of thing that just makes Kaworu even more grateful and affectionate for him.

His face suddenly brightens, and he pulls his hand away just so he can place both on the piano keys.
]

I'll play you a song, and then maybe we can walk back together. How does that sound?